"And theres always going to be that one thing that you want but never get, that one mistake you can never take back, and that memory you would do anything to have again."

My own fault, I'm an idiot, sucks to be me now I guess.

I know I havn't updated in so long but I just can't seem to find the time.  Tennis, school, work, a whole lot of other stuff.  And I have a wonderful boyfriend now who I'm always talking to at night.  I'm tellin you guys, he is amazing and makes me feel like the only person in the world.  I always feel special around him.  I don't know how I got so lucky.  One problem, he lives in PA.  I'm dealing with that fact though and I care about him so much and so that helps.  He was actually supposed to come up this weekend but plans fell through so that didn't really happen.  Oh well, shit happens and then you deal with it and move on.  This just means that he can come up for my homecoming though.  I can wait two more weeks.  Don't want to but I can do it.  Only for him.  I can't wait to see him you guys, it's just one of those things. 

So yeah, that was my update.  Sorry but I have to tell you about how I'm in love.  Amazing feeling let me tell you.  I promise to try to update more.  Love always,

~Alex~

Last night was sooo awesome!  I went out with my friend Tash W from drill and we drove up to Waupaca and went to a totally kick ass party.  We got our hands stamped and so they both say SKEET on the back of our hands.  It was so much fun.  I met a few people and they said they would call me sometime this week to talk.  So hopefully they'll do that, it was cool meeting new people.  Dave was supposed to be out there but he ended up being up north with his girlfriend or something.  Oh well, his loss, like I said before, it was a good time.

So today I'm hanging out at my mom's house all day because since it's labor day and all she has off at the post office.  Which also means my letter to Russ isn't going to be sent out until tomorrow and either is the one he wrote to me, I can't wait to read it.  Eleven days until he comes up from PA to visit me.  That's going to be awesome, I know I called him last night but for the life of me I can't really remembered all that was said.  Opps, I'm sure he'll tell me all about my phone call today when he calls.

School starts in two days and tonight and tomorrow is going to be dedicated to doing my homework assignment for AP English.  I'm going to love that class and I'll be darnned if I start out on the wrong foot.  I need that class to be a good one so colleges will look at it and take that into consideration seeing as how I'm going into an English major.  I need to start looking at a bunch of choices and send out some applications.  It's going to be an exciting couple of months I'm sure.

~Alex~

I'm home!  I got back two days ago.  Drove home right after I graduated.  You would think that I would be so excited to get the heck out of Fort Leonardwood but actually I miss it.  Well I miss certain things about it.  Like being in the training bay early in the morning, having everything planned out for me everyday, sitting in the shade at a range and talking to everyone in my platoon, Knight and his Rodger stories, Meyer, Kukuk, Dornetta.  I miss so much more too and it would take way too long to list everything.  It's good to be home though.

The night I got back I saw my room and how Melissa decorated it.  That was unbelievable, I barely recognized it.  Brittany stopped by and talked for a few minutes, I missed her and all but all she did was complain about Tyler and get annoyed with every little thing.  She's my best friend but sometimes I just get so fed up.  Tyler just got back from basic training in Fort Benning and already they are arguing.  How did I know that one was going to happen. *rolls eyes*  Kimber also stopped by for a bit after she was done babysitting.  I love that girl, she always knows how to make me laugh.

Last night I went out with Robbie and Kim to do what we normally do out at the shop.  I've missed it being just the three of us sharing a few beers and telling stories about everything.  That was one thing I really missed at home.  And when Kim went home at 11:30 me and Robbie talked until I had to go home at 1:00.  We always have the kind of talks that make you think.  We talked about pretty much everything, Greg moving, drama at home, Wesley's car accident.  He made sure I had heard about that and then we talked about it.  Things at school sure are going to be different without that boy, especially outdoor, it just won't be the same. 

Today after I go get my butt ready and stuff my Uncle Tommy is coming up to say hi and spend some time with me, eat some breakfast, and then Ben's graduation party out at Grandpa's out in Waupaca.  I'm excited about that one.   Should be fun.  Yay for parties! Lol.  Then maybe go out to the club tonight with Tash and Britt, should be amazing if I do!  Finally back to being crazy!

~Alex~ 

Today is the day that I leave for Milwaukee and it's about an hour and forty five minutes left to go.  I unloaded everything out of my room and took all of the boxes downstairs into storage.  It kind of feels empty.  Ok, it really feels empty.  All of my running today is done so I have one hour to relax at home and that's it.  Then I go to the social securtiy office and then down to Mil-town.  I still don't think it has sunk in yet.  Like I'm choosing not to face reality because I don't have to yet.  Not for another day when I'm on that plane.  I need to be strong and show no tears, I already told Dad not to cry because then I would ball.  He told me he was already teary eyed yesterday.  Not cool...

So yeah, I also got my senior pics today and got to pic out my first three choices.  I'm happy about them.  So yay!

But yeah, again, this is going to be my last post in town.  I thought yesterday was but I changed my mind.  I'm going to miss everyone!  Pray for me and I'll be thinking of you!  Love always,

~Alex~